It's been a While...

it's been a while since i have posted something on this blog so here i go.
I am 26 now. Still working on losing weight for my mission. I started out a little over a year and a half ago at 405lbs. and now im 310. My goal is to lose another 70 by the end of May so that i can serve my mission, My ultimate goal is to weigh somewhere between 215 and to 230. but 240 is good for now. I feel like i reached a plateau. I guess i have to mix up the eating and work outs. (Any ideas)
I have thought of calling it quits. almost everybody who reads this doesn't know, but I feel that i was addicted to fast food. I would consume anywhere between 4000-8000 calories a day and sometimes that would be in one meal, 3-5 time a week. I blew a lot of money on food. (no wonder i use to weigh 405 lbs. and i was always broke) Controlling my eating and what i eat, working out everyday, going to bed early, waking up early and staying positive, sometimes wares me out emotionally. have no fear, I learned a very valuable lesson this week. I learned the hard way (as i always do) and i would like to apologize and say thank you to my dear friend (you know who you are) who was and is there for me but i chose to ignore her. I thought i could do this on my own, soon did i find out that not only was i ignoring a friend who was willing to helped me in these times of need but i also chose to ignore the impressions i was receiving. Humble myself, soften my heart and Trust in the Lord. I should have done that from the beginning.
So Last night, kneeled down on the side of my bed and started to pour my heart out to our Creator. as soon and i stopped being stubborn and was willing to do the things that i felt i needed to do, i instantly felt a peace come over me.
Im changing my life for the better, and the things from the past sometimes become Speed Bumps along my journey to be who i want to be.
I now look at it as a refining project. I am or use to be very rough around the edges but as i learn to be healthy, think smarter, be more spiritually minded etc.. I am doing things i didn't do before. Im refining who i was into who i want to be. I feel that I can do anything now!!!!!
I am grateful for the opportunities i have to grow and learn. I thank all of you who support me!
I would Also like to thank the Young Family, they called me on my birthday to sing me Happy Birthday! I love you guys and thank you for your example and love. That was my favorite b-day present!
(Gosh, am i making sense, im just writing what comes to mind)
Goal for next weel, lose at least 11 lbs so i can be out of the 300 lb. club!

Love you all

-Sean